Wow!

Ok so I know it's been forever since I last wrote anything and that's really weird because a lot has happened. I just don't know where or what to start with.

 Well We're in the middle of selling the house so that's what's been taking up the most time just getting the house settled and ready for sale. It seems like since that's come up all we've been doing is thinking about the house and going out on the weekends just to get away from it. All in all it's been a bitch to do and hopefully we'll never have to do it again.

 I just re-read the last few entries and now 4 months removed from my 29th birthday I still feel the same about age as I did then. I guess I just don't get what the big deal is, I feel like I should be making more out of it than I am. Maybe I will, who knows?

 My Birthday was fun from what I remember, I have realized one thing about getting older I've had more 'OK I kinda remember last night' drunk nights than I ever have. All I remember is I milked the hell out of the free drinks for like 3 nights.

 We really haven't been going out that much except for B-Unit on Sundays and occasionally The Lonestar. B-Unit has been a lot of fun and we've met some really great guys there, fortunately we've also had sex with a lot of them too.

 I'm looking forward to Memorial Day Weekend this year it'll be different, the past few years we've been going to Guerneville but this year out of necessity rather than choice we're going to Gay Day at Great America and then hopefully to either Yosemite or Monterey for a picture taking trip which I desperately need to do.

 This weekend we'll be meeting up with the girls for brunch on Sunday then some of us will be heading off to B-Unit to dance and other things you know who you "backroom" people are.

 This past weekend was a lot of fun too, Ryan and I went to The White Horse in Berkeley and met up with Gerren and two guys we met at B-Unit Josh and Miguel now I haven't gotten to talk to Miguel like I have with Josh but he seems like a nice guy kinda shy which means he's probably a freak when you get to know him, but who knows. We met them at a B-Unit afterparty which is always fun, it's at someone's house so there's a better chance that you can chat and get to know people better. Until the lights dim and our host says "OK let's get into the shower" and then you get the drift. So this is where we met Josh and Miguel whom we had chatted on Bear 411 before but hadn't yet made the connection. So that's how we know them.LOL. So that was fun getting to know them better it's hard to carry on a conversation when your gettin it good from behind;)

 Sunday found us spending the morning and most of the afternoon with our Moms. Around 4pm we made our way to The Eagle's Beer Bust to meet Gerren, Mikey, Danny and Justin. We also met Mark and Angus a couple of guys Danny met in Palm Springs and Gibby one of Mikey and Danny's friends. I had a long Island and after the 4th don't remember much so I must have had a blast, I did I was told later.

 Well I have to get back to my husbandly duties. laters.

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Happy Birthday 2 Me

Hey all, I find myself here the day before my 29th Birthday listening to Anita baker and wondering why it doesn't mean that much to me. I mean I guess it should be a big deal but it doesn't feel like it I think I'll start to worry nd over think my life when I'm turning 40. Right now it just feels like another year has gone by since my last one, should it feel any different?

Well lets see what's been going on in my life since last I blogged? I was involved in a couple naked get together because I hate the word orgy it sounds so 70's. The first one was a bit of surprise if only for the fact that a friend of mine was involved ("Gerren did you just lick my balls") of which I was later assured he didn't. That one was a lot of fun in that i liked everyone involved sex aside.

The second one was a bit more separate, where the first one was a free for all and I nor Ryan was focused on 1 person. The second naked gathering had Ryan and i concentrating on different guys for most of the time then we came together after a couple people left. All in all Ryan and My first "Orgy" was a good experience.

New Years was a lot of fun also, we were suppose to go to Cip's parties at Cip Lounge and The Pound but by the time we got through traffic and found parking it was pretty late so we stopped in the Lonestar to say our hellos before we left but after a couple Long Islands I wasn't going anywhere, aside from the fact that we ran into Nelson's Boyfriend(Nelson is the sexy guy that bartends at B-Unit) Zack and his friend who's name escapes me. Ryan later asked me how that was because I don't really hang around loud fratboy types because that's what they seemed like to me but it was fun I had a blast,they are crazy guys but I had fun.

I've actually been hanging out with Mikey more and that's really been a blast for me because I feel really close to him and honestly there are only a handful of people I "Miss" when I don't get to talk,chat,communicate period with and to actually hang out and just have a good time is even more rare. I recently took some pictures of him for my portfolio and I think they came out great.

Speaking of re-connecting I got back in touch with my very first gay crush and really good friend Eric. I sometimes think it's weird how people can come in and out of your life and if you are truly connected it's as if they never left. I'm glad Eric is one of those people, His Fiancee Jeff has a really beautifully written article in Frontiers magazine that I think everyone should check out.

I feel bad though because I know I should go down to Sacramento to see my ex's new apartment. I haven't been avoiding it but it sure is hard to get around that far when you don't drive but hopefully "Dreamy Dean" and his new man "Sexy Seth" will forgive me. I'll try to get a caravan out there next weekend.

Well let's see I should have some more stories after my Birthday weekend. Later.

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This one is just a picture of our little angel(Now if only she'd act like it.)I still took the picture though

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Bigger and Bloggier

Hey everyone sorry it's taken so long to update this thing but life has been just that boring. Not really but pretty damn close, when last i blogged I was preparing myself for Ryan's birthday and Folsom Street Fair well to say it was a drunken disaster(in a good way) would be an understatement. From what I can remember our friends Jeffrey and Gerren came over Friday and we had a few drinks here at home then at about midnight or so Ryan and I went out to Daddy's and tried to maneuver our way through the leather and chest fur and managed to get a drink before deciding we ourselves were already to drunk to have a good time so we came home.

 Saturday found us getting up fairly early to get to The BMB meet and greet at Mezzanine which also turned out to be pretty damn fun even though we pretty much stood around and drank and gossiped the whole time, drunk by 4 we met up with our friend Derrick and made our way back down to the East Bay to rest up and show Gerren Barbershop the T.V. Show which is hilarious BTW. Afterwards we got our sorry ass carcasses up and went back to SF and for the life of me I can't remember what the hell happened. Hopefully we didn't break anything.

 Sunday Derrek, Ryan and I went for lunch and then dropped Derrick off at B.A.R.T. came back home had much needed sex and then rest. Around 9 or so we went back to Sf after the Folsom festivities had died down and went to Cip Lounge for some drinks where after more than a few Liquid lushes I gave some guy head in the bathroom who was totally not my type of guy skinny D&G all the way but whatever Variety being the spice of life I guess, and then something happened that I can only describe as out of left field, I was pretty much done after a few minutes because as cute as being on my knees in a bathroom is I have a low tolerance for it. So I get up tell him that's it pretty much and then his glazed over eyes look at me and says "you're hot" and then he pisses on my pissing penis and all I could think of was 1 he's pissing on my dick and 2 it's hot. So I zip up take two steps back and say "ummm OK" and leave that was pretty much that. We stayed a bit longer drank a bit more and then left.

 The next weekend was Castro Street Fair and the only memorable thing about that weekend was on Sunday night we get a call from Tom the other half of Tom and Craig a couple from Ryan's past that he use to fool around with the same Tom who has confessed a certain attraction for me and who i have also confessed an attraction to but for one reason or another our friendship has pretty much stayed on the IM occasional phone call level. For the most part I think Tom is a wonderfully big hearted attractive guy but there's a sadness about him that I feel bad for. He's the type of person that is really good looking on the outside as well as inside but for one reason or another has pretty low self esteem and you look at him and think you have a lot going for you if you could just believe it more you'd be perfect but I guess everyone in some form or another are their own worst critic some of us just hide it better than others or at least don't give into those criticisms as quickly. I guess that was another side-bar...So back to the story, Tom calls and asks if we're coming out because Craig, a friend who's name escapes me and he are at Badlands so we discuss it for a bit then decide why not so we meet then at badlands and I can already tell Tom has had a few, he's just a bit looser and definetly more flirty which I love and am all for from him, Craig is a lot more drunk and for some reason I have never really been 100% comfortable around I don't know why maybe because I felt like he was a little overbearing of Tom for my taste but I could tell right off the bat he was shooshing me away so he could get at Ryan who later told me Craig is a cool person to hang out with and if the four of us were gonna fool around he'd be cool with that but that he didn't want a 1 on 1 with Craig. Fair enough but at that moment Tom and I were headed for the dance floor and started our little make out session on the dance floor which is always a little surreal for me because at gay clubs whenever there are two guys dancing making out groping chicks always want to watch and/or grab. I pretty much got into being with Tom in that moment and I think we made through 4 or 5 songs(Tom if you read this...Nice ass loved it) but I figured Ryan was probably wondering what was going on. So we made our way through the dance floor and found Ryan and Craig after a minute or so Tom and Craig had to leave. That was Sunday...

 One last thing I said Ryan and I had a Queer as Folk moment at B-unit last entry and then I gotta check out. We found out about this new club opening at the Bench and Bar called B-Unit so we figured hey why not something new and it's in the east bay. So we went and the music was cute and the guys were big and beefy and the bartenders well lets just say I have a special place in my heart for hot bartenders so there they are;) after a few hours of dancing Ryan ran into an old high school friend who revealed to having had a crush on Ryan since then and his boyfriend so after pleasnatries we got along really well so after about an hour or so of chatting we all went to "the back room" and started making out next thing I know I have a finger in my ass and it ain't from anybody I came in the room with but I guess in these situations you just have to go with it which I did and I could do a play by play but you get the picture suck suck, bob bob,slurp slurp...ahhhhh... and that was also a Sunday.

I'll catch ya'll up later on through Friday. 

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